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Sep. 16th, 2005 @ 11:46 pm Red berets and rock n roll monkeys
Current Mood: nervousnervous
Have you ever tried to tell someone how you felt? You think carefully, and plan every sentence, every statement you are going to make. Once you know what you want to say, you rehearse it in your head a couple of times, you may even tell your best friend how its gonna go, exactly what will be said on your part. Then when it comes down the moment for you to whip out those words, and then the nervousness gets the best of you. Your breathing gets heavier, and you feel the heart in your chest beating upon the inside of your skin, your hands start shaking, it kinda has the same effect as a glass of water during an earthquake. All of a sudden you can only remember bits and peices of your verbal masterpeice. Its going to a blank, and you feel extraordinarily dumb. There are some umm's....and ehhh's, some fumbling on your words. Finally the basic words to get your point across just spill out, but they don't sound as sweet as you wish. Your blood turns to ice, as you wait for something, you don't care what, just something. You mumble to yourself "Come On! just reject me or confess some hidden undying love, Something! ANYTHING!" Theres a long moment of silence and all he can do is blush, comment that hes flattered, and change the subject.

How is that supposed to make us feel. I don't know about you guys but it leaves me confused. Your almost left with this feeling of...emptyness. All the thoughts you spent on him, just kind of float out the window. You relationship wasn't that strong to begin with, you never hung out, you hardly saw him, and now you know it will be diminished...to nothing. You feel stupid, for possibly destroying something that may have been good. You feel broken, because you really liked him a lot. *le sigh*
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